Aku .........

Assalammualaikum . .
Mood : Nak nangis ja ~~ :'(

Aku baru terperasan yang aku ni suka nangis if ade problem . Why ? sebab aku rasa dengan menangis aku akan rasa lega , semua yang aku pendam akan mengalir perlahan lahan , rasa tenang je lepas nangis . Dan aku juga perasan yang aku ni sebenarnya seorang yang suka pendam problem. Yes! Aku ade share probem dengan kawan kawan . Tapi something yang betul betul pasal aku , aku tak pernah share kat sape sape. Aku hanya mampu share dengan diri sendiri. Seriously , aku tak tau kenape . Memang ! Takde sape yang tau pasal aku , about myself , who I'm actually . No one knows about my real feeling , about my real self , about what I want , but when my bestie said about me , I felt so so proud ! I'm so grateful who can tell about me . I don't know what I want in my life . What I know is I need Allah beside me , I need friend to sharing , I need family as supporters . but a guy who very special , I don't think so . :-)

Sometimes I can be stolid , cheerful girl . Hrmmm . I'm not sure . Aku sendiri confused . -,-'
Tak tau mcm mne nak explain . Tapi mcm tuh la citernyer . Ntahlah ~~ . Tapi kalau time aku betul betul marah , aku akan menangis . Pelik kan ? but that's me . Kadang kadang terfikir jugak untuk ade seorang guy yang faham aku , tapi buat mase skrg ni aku rase tak perlu , sebab aku baru 16 tahun oke ! But I know , the guy who I mean it is who will be my prince in my life , who can protect me , can take care about me , who the guy very understanding about who I'm . And I knew that guy is my future husband. But it's still early for me to think about it. What I know I need to do my responsibility as secondary's student, need to always study study study to achieve my dreams .

Dream ? Everyone have a dream. Just like me. A dream that only I know . Just me . Nobody know about it ! haha . xD . Stop about my dream . Now I want explain why I always 'berangan' ? Because I'm trying to find who I'm ?. Who actually ? Who I'm trying to be ? I don't  know . I'm confused to think about it .but I had to ! And I try try try and never stop to try . But until now ? What the result ? I still find it . But I'm tired just because I always want to try and try and try . But I always remind to myself that I won't give up ! Must keeping try ! And I Won't give up ! That's Me ! never give up until I got what I want .!

*Never give up in whatever I do
*to my self : "Maey ! Kau kena kuat ! Jangan asyik nak nangis je ! Sebab kalau orang nampak kau menangis, ni akan buat orang rase yang kau ni seorang yang lemah "
*Oke . I will trying to stop crying ! Must always smile  and smile :-)

#Moral of the story is kena selalu senyum sebab senyum tu akan menutup segala masalah , perasaan , dan ape yang tengah kite rasa sekarang . Sebab hanya kita dan Allah saja tau ape yang kite rasa .

Hope sape yang bace boleh amek yang positive saje dari ape yang ditulis . Sekian .

Terima kasih kepada yang sudi membaca . :-)

Sincerely ,
maey ....